I'm getting tired of watching things from outside the glass. I thought isolation was the answer to all my problems.
I'm beginning to think I'm wrong. I guess i know my problem more than anyone. I don't need anyone second guessing it.

Guess the only only question that comes to mind is what are you ganna do about it? And I guess it can be an asset or liability if I answered it without thinking. But these past few days, I've experience, learned, and taught by life. No more regrets. I've come past in my life where some smalls things are worth doing and some big things not worth shit.

People are so different, yet so similar in some small ways. I guess the important thing that I'm trying to say. Is that I leave the boy me and become a man. I'm a bit late, but hey better late than never. I've come to accept my past mistakes and move on to a different level way of thinking. It felt odd. To have responsibilities. But at the same time I'm happy.

This will also be my last blog. To all the people i know in xanga that i know. Thank you. And I'd also like to apologize to some of the things i said before. I was a bit inconsiderate and i was angry in my earlier years teen years mostly. hahaha.. But nuff said. Good bye xanga. It's been nice experience for me.

See ya

stupid abdominal pain, uhhh somebody kill me.
get it over with. im not a big fan of pain. then again who is?
my recent diagnose tells me that it might be either ulcer or acid reflux.
but it seems to subside if i walk a bit. happens only at night around 2 or 3.
then its happy hour. yeah....happy hour. *sigh*. im going to the doctor.

There come's a time in our lives that we ask ourselves, that tiny lil voice behind your head.
"Is there more to life?"
It's funny most men looks for something that they might never find.
But its our nature to seek some deeper meaning. It might not be today, it might not be tommorow, but it will be there.
It does not leave you, it does not sleep, it does not eat, it ONLY WAITS.
Some few of us will find meaning, but most of us will die with it.
What im trying is. I was trying to find a deeper meaning to my life.
I never found it. It found me. Now i know what to do.

Only once it will show itself to you. It's out there. Somewhere.....waiting.
Yeah i KNOW, fucking  EMO DIE asshole. But really im not emo.
I just find it fun to express your inner feelings once in while.
Even though its sound like emo fart im writting right now.
But i am serious bout the 1st paragraph. Been awhile since i blog. Im not the
type to blog everything that happens everyday, not even weekly. well i used to
but something change. its feels different now. all i can say is that my life was full of regret
and emptiness. So vast that emptiness is, that it hurts to even wake up. well "WAS" anyway.
today is different. full of experience that i cannot describe. i cannot seem to put words on
how i live my life these days. its happens to fast and to quick. hahah and it felt good.
it felt right. I've been waiting for that void to be filled for almost 4 years now. it has been
a great blast. wish everything will stay forever as it is. but i know all good things must come to an end.
or one journey end another begins. blah blah sounds familiar?